Dreams and Yard Sales

The other day, I had a wonderful dream. It was short, and it would have been boring if it didn't mean so much to me.

I had a dream that Bill and I were just sitting on the bed, in silence, at night time. In my arms was the most perfect little infant. I remarked about how the baby was such a perfect, quiet, sweet baby, and how happy I was that we decided to go through with everything to have another. I kept saying that it was so worth it. Then Bill mentioned "she" and I said "it could be a boy, we don't know," like my brain couldn't decide. Bill replied with "no honey, we do know. It's a girl, remember?" It's interesting that even in my own dream, I'm wrong about the gender! Bill has been right, in real life, 100% of the time now.

That was is. Just laying with our sweet baby cradled in our arms, that baby being perfectly content to just stare back at us with all of it's newness. I woke up feeling so comforted and at peace, and feeling stronger in my conviction to at least try for another.

Yard sales this morning, where I found everything I ever wanted for a baby but couldn't buy, also made me feel the need to try for another. I'm so obviously not done having children. It did make me sad though, to see all the baby stuff - two stands with matching twin everything - when had things gone differently, I'd be pregnant with twins right now and buying two of everything.

So when I got home, I focused on the charity. I had an order for a set of twins last night and a baby boy angel, so I got to work. I spent a lot of time with the kids, teaching them video games, making our traditional Saturday dinner, and drinking chocolate milk. It's a lazy Saturday to just enjoy what I have...and think about what I want.

I'm enjoying my new business. So far I've sold four angels, and have about 3/4th of my start up money back. As soon as I've sold about 10 angels, I'll have enough to start up my charity. I have about $60 worth of supplies I need yet, plus repaying the start up money. While it's probably going to take most of next month to get things situated and paid back, I really enjoy what I'm doing. I'm getting to personalize these sweet sleeping babies for those who need the comfort of having something to remember their babies by. It's a really neat feeling.